selfpreservationist | [imeeji] IC inbox

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[This is an IC inbox for V/Raven, who cannot be bothered to set one up for himself.]

Do you think, if you had that kind of future to look forward to... that, y'know.

Maybe you would think about saying yes? To marrying her?

...

Maybe. If I thought... there was a future for the both of us that was... better. Than what we had previously imagined.

[...]

Ah, but there is... the thought that... marriage brings. I don't know if I could do that... to Glory. To Noah. To make them endure that kind of pain.

Y'know, I never used to think marriage was something that D.Va would want either. I guess that's kinda my fault, huh...

... what is it like?

What is it like?

...Well, you get to use the words 'husband' and 'wife' a lot, and it never gets old.

Do you feel...

[stops himself, shakes his head]

No, that's enough.

...Do I feel, what?

Complete?

[shakes his head again]

It's nothing. Something for me to ponder over, not you.

You can think about it out loud... I wanna know what's bothering you.

... was it... worth it?

...

Was it worth what it did to my other relationships, you mean?

[nods silently]

[He thinks on this]

...I think, I was always the type of person who feels more comfortable dedicating myself to one committed relationship. Getting with multiple people, that-- that happened because I felt like it was expected here. I had to unlearn so many things that I thought it was just another hang-up that was wrong.

In the end, accepting that I can't make everyone happy, but... things would be okay anyways, it was freeing. But that's because I was like this t'begin with, not because marriage magically changed something in me.