selfpreservationist | [imeeji] IC inbox

Oh, hey, look who decided to show his face instead of just his dick. [ turns around and glares at him. ]

You were the one who--never mind.

[sighs]

It was... childish of me.

I was the one that what?

You wanted to see me suffer, yeah? Then how about doing so from up close. [ lifts up one of her arms and tears the thread out, visibly wincing because OW, but otherwise she doesn't seem to give two shits when blood just splashes across the arcade floor. ]

[ crazy, no?, completely in-fucken-sane. ]

[jesus christ]

Dva!

[ ...she might regret this decision a few moments later, because she staggers right back into the machine. she's been exerting herself all day and now gushing a bunch of blood on the floor was a stupid idea. no wonder people get mad at her. she really IS a fucken idiot. well. the brain bees thought it would be funny and while they're laughing she's feeling kind of... nauseous. this isn't funny at all. ]

I got Victor this, dummy. [ she ignores all the blood and just shoves the little bee costume at raven. ] Now go away so I can suffer in peace.

[he catches it and looks down at it in total surprise--this is what she wanted to give him? this is what all the fuss was about?]

...

Foolish. As if I could leave you like this. You're a mess... there's nothing enjoyable about watching someone wreck themselves.

[he moves closer and holds his arm out]

Come on.

[ he made the mole hill into a mountain. gg raven. ]

[ hisses at him through clenched teeth. ]

I'd love to know what your thought I had planned.

Some uncanny stunt, most likely. Or you had another bird.

[going to touch her face if she'll let him]

[ she does NOT want him to touch her. ]

[ in fact, she's just going to henshin to avoid having to deal with the damage right now. it also helps her move away from him. ]

Your lack of faith in me is already so remarkable.

[he withdraws his hand, holding it up]

It's not lack of faith. You told me yourself how you're prone to... losing control. Isn't this a continuation of that?

...do I look like a monster! [ she bristles and her tentacles all rise, acting as though they're going to attack, but... there's really not much they can do, so it's kind of just for intimidation and show. she spreads her new wings too, making herself look a little bit bigger. ] I was talking about that stupid corruption! And how my emotions were out of whack lately.

Not... not this! [ it's getting so hard to resist their call. ] This is all a result of that damn game. [ not all, obviously, but it's certainly amplifying a lot of things - both good and bad. ]

And what is it doing to you, exactly?

[ she just glares at him for another couple of seconds, but then she dehenshins and slumps against the machine she had been standing next to. ]

I changed. It changed me... [ a touch of hesitance. ] for the better. [ even though she's doing her best to be sane she's still insane. ] I transformed, and shed my old shell. Look at me now. [ she spreads her wings again, motioning to them. ] I'm a new me. And they all agree I'm so beautiful. All of the voices in my head. [ her hand drops back to her side. ] I swear there's got to be at least fifty. And they never ever stop.

Dva... you know this isn't really you. Deep down inside, underneath those voices, you know.

[ she miiiight tear up a little at that, but she doesn't acknowledge what he's saying otherwise. ]

Don't you think I'm pretty, Raven?

I do. I think you're beautiful.

[places his hand on her cheek over the armor]

Even when you're in pain, you're still beautiful.

[ no more armor! ]

...

[ sets her hand over his and squeezes gently. at least a bunch of the voices finally shut up, so she can kind of think straight. ]

Stupid game.

[brings his other hand up to pet her hair, gentle]

I can't always tame the beast inside you... but I'll keep trying.

...you shouldn't have to. I should be capable of doing that. [ going to remove her jacket and wrap it around her arm. ]

You should, but hell hasn't been kind to you.

It's not kind to anybody.

It's hell.

[ she takes a step back, looking over her shoulder to see if there's somewhere she can sit. ]

[still staying close to her as long as she's not pushing him away]

... the costume is... cute. I don't know if Victor trusts me enough yet to withstand something like this, but... we'll see.

[ she's not. she's just interesting in finding a place to not stand, since if she doesn't she's not going to be standing much longer. ]

... [ she's not sure if he's lying or not. she ignores the chorus of he is that immediately surges the moment she wonders, and just nods at him. ] It's fine. He doesn't have to wear it.

I just... thought... [ shrugs, trailing off. ] Anyway that was it.

You just thought you'd recruit my bird into your cult. I understand. He's highly sought-after.

[joking, of course, but trying to be light about it]

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